Merry Christmas & Happy New Year ! ! !

Some friends I ride with were posting holiday greetings but could not seem to deal with our losses this year I'm not doing well with it either, but I'm trying to focus on the positive. Frankly for me it feels like a life and death situation.

Here is my response, hopefully it helps.

While myself and friends around me are trying to get into the spirit of the season I can't help but think of friends that were lost in the wreck, missing them so so terribly, as well as others throughout the year.

That being said, I can't speak for all those we lost but I do know that Christmas was a very happy and joyous season for a couple of them and I imagine they're better served and remembered in celebration than in me sitting around crying and singing "whooaa is me".

Much Love Dan, Dayle, Clyde, and Steve. And to all of you have a Very Blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

~Julie

Finally

Over the last couple weeks I've noticed that I am spending less time crying and more time smiling whenever my thoughts are drawn to my friends that passed in the wreck. I'm not beating myself up near as much for experiencing some joy in my day or happiness in the memories I have of my friends. Recently a few of us were reminded of one of Dan's antics and were left pretty much breathless from laughter.

Now that is an incredible feeling. Not only the laughter, but more importantly the happiness I'm beginning to experience again when I'm in the company of my friends if only in memory. Feels a little like we're still together enjoying each other. I imagine they've missed that as much as I have and are shouting "it's about time chica, we've missed you!!!"

~Julie